RELATIONSHIP★

My relationship goes like crap.

Yes. CRAP.

Meet. talk. together forever. fight. over. never talk and see each other again.

It sucks. I'm tired of this.

I want relationship goes awesome.

wait.. what kinda relationship?

with friend? with boys?

with friend? sort of.

See each other. talk. getting closer. going anywhere always together. have a little fun. little fight. telling each other secret. have a crush with the same boy. talking about boys. getting a part. don't have a time to talk again. and BAM! we are going away like nothing happened. it happened on over and over again.

with boys? well it sucks.

almost the same with friend, but more special, ask phone number, talking all day long on the phone. putting on courage to go out grab some food or just chillin. then he confesses, talking all fluffy stuff that make a butterfly on my stomach, act all sweet in front of my friend when we are hang out, start to be my mom, make me go sleep early, eat properly, telling me to wear something that not really expose my skin, he just make me so comfortable when i'm with him, then he changed, not texting me back, avoiding me, flirting with other girls in front of me, then he tell me he don't like me anymore, he left me just like that. after that we never talk again, he just act like NOTHING HAPPENED. shit I'm gonna start to cry.

Why am I deserve to had a relationship like this?

did i not good enough?

am i that bad that nobody can't stay longer with me?

where the 'I love you just the way you are' goes??

is that just a bullshit for telling somebody to trust them then dumb them like nothing shit happened?

what? tell me what?

Don't think i'm that serious.

I just want to have relationship with someone who gonna texting me every morning like this..

I now there is no 'PERFECT BOYFRIEND' unless there is 'PERFECT RELATIONSHIP'

Relationship between people that complete each other weakness and make it PERFECT.

I'm not begging I'm hoping.

I'm not desperate I'm steadfast.

XOXO